Have some insults and honest flattery!

[bagheera_san]

This is a meme that intrigues me. It's sort of an invitation to cowardice, because usually these are not things I'd say to a person's virtual "face", either because I don't want to be a flatterer or because they might be hurtful. But it *is* revealing in a way memes are supposed to be.

Take a look at your LJ friends list, then list up to ten things you want to say to ten different LJ friends. DO NOT state who these people are. DO NOT confirm or deny any "comment speculation."

1. You are rude, offensive and down-right trollish. I LOVE your posts and they frequently make me laugh, because you go against fandom "mainstream" and often reveal hypocrisies that otherwise I would never notice. I don't dare to comment because I can't think of anything witty to say.

2. You write the most breathtakingly beautiful fic and for some reason I never feel stupid when we talk in comments. You impress me, but don't intimidate me.

3. I sometimes wonder if you're really serious about the things you write, but you're so loyal, consistent and radical in your biases and sympathies that I guess you really are. Sometimes it's really hard to find something to say because I don't think it'll get through.

4. I wish we could get better acquainted, but I don't think we ever will. Which is a shame because I really like you.

5. Comments from you always make me terribly happy.

6. You are awesome, because every time I feel like now I *really* envy you you either write something incredibly dorky or something that just makes me squee. It's a sort of love/hate thing were the hate part is silly and the love part vastly overwhelming. Talking to you and reading your fic is inspiring in a way few fandom acquaintances have been for me. Your smartness REALLY intimidates me, though.

7. The moment we first talked to each other was embarassing. Ever since I could kick myself for friending you, because we have absolutely nothing in common. But then again I've sort of gotten used to having you on my friendslist and I think I would actually miss your posts if I defriended you.

8. You are one of the many things I will really miss about SV fandom.

9. I sort of have a bit of a fandom crush on you. Your posts never fail to interest me, you seem awfully intelligent, and you fic is amazing. You're painfully sincere in a way that is really charming.

10. It feels as if I know you remarkably well.


Um, yeah. You may have noticed that I have this thing... fandom people basically fall into three categories for me: people I like so much that I'm afraid to get close, people I don't like that much at all, and the rare cases of people where I don't feel awkward at all. Yay insecurities! Also, after a while I get attached to people, whether I like them or not.

Comments

[x-los.livejournal.com]

You, madam, have too many lj friends in fandoms I know nothing of for me to successfully guess any of these. Boo.

Also! Re: your hate of spiders: So I just got home (I am from/live in the South, I was going to college in Horrible Frozen North), and on the evening of my arrival I had to kill four spiders, two of which were big, poisonous wolf spiders. Don't go camping, you say? I WAS CLEANING MY ROOM/SORTING MY BOOKS!!! Wtf, spiders?! Augh! Ewwwww! Haaaaaate. Tell me if any of those spider-deterrents you googled seem efficacious.

[bagheera-san.livejournal.com]

Guessing is not the point! (Okay, it is.)

Nothing helps against spiders. They are nature's revenge for all our sins. No, actually laziness was stronger than fear and I haven't yet tried out any of the suggestions.

Also, you accidentally suceeded in making me read Dostoevsky, just so you know. I'm reading the epilogue of Crime and Punishment right now.

[x-los.livejournal.com]

Guessing is way the point. Speaking of anon things, and what I'm about to say is admittedly stupid but only half in jest, I've never been loathed in any fandom anon meme. Sadface! How will I even know I've meant something to fandom if no faceless anon person loathes me!?

Ah well. I'm similarly lazy, or I'd just go buy/find a hedgeapple.

re: C&P: GREAT SQUEE! Did you hate it or like it? Also, I really wanna read German!Faustus (as opposed to Marlowe!Faustus) based off what you said about it, so we may be even.

[bagheera-san.livejournal.com]

I loved it to bits! Which I didn't expect at all, since last year when I was in Petersburg I tried to read The Idiot and gave up after the first fifty pages. But C&P I could hardly put down and read it in 4 days or something. I could identify worryingly well with Raskolnikov *g* Also, great amusement was had every time Svidrigailov showed up. Dounia and Sonia surprised me with female character awesomeness - well, it's just terribly readable.

I've never been hated either. And I've only ever gotten one flame ever... and that was on ff.net were it's hard to tell the difference between flames and the usual incoherence.

I am way jealous of you for having been to Petersburg.

[x-los.livejournal.com]

Dostoevsky's touch and go like that. Imho, he's sort of got an architectural to Tolstoy's panoramic approach to Russian lit, if that makes any sense--meaning that if you don't like this complicated building!novel he's made you, you're a bit SOL, but you might really lurve the next one?

I would almost vote Razuminkin/Raskolnikov/Dunya/Sonya OT4, just for the omg!Spring Vacation Siberia!ending. Also, wtf second epilogue with the cheesy-ass "And then he learned a lesson. More on that later. Or, y'know, never."? Weak. It's one of those times when you can see the firing squad/gulag/religious conversion experience burned into the writer's consciousness, and I feel /bad/ for him, because there's all his creative rich world-building that he can't help doing, and he's trying to impose this limited moralistic twee element onto because he's just that /broken/, but it's still unbelievable, convictionless writing. Sorry. I'll shut up. I just love that book too hard.

...Nabakov is still a fucker for dismissing Dostoevsky just for his moralism, though. Way to not get it, Nabakov.

God. FF.net IS that randomly incoherent. Back in high school, writing fic for an entirely different genre, I flew into bitchy mocking because someone on ff.net daaaared call my characterization 'seme' and 'uke.' They meant it in a 'lulz, flattering!' way, too. Not that 'seme' and 'uke' still don't annoy the living fuck out of me as a weird appropriation of Japanese historical terms and a huge gender/sexuality issues quagmire, but why oh why was I an embarrassing wanky bitch then? ...oh yeah. I was in high school.

Hey, in random!news, you've read Waiting for Godot, right?

...Are Vladamir and Estragon totally gay or am I too deep in the slash haze? I can't even tell anymore.

Re: I am way jealous of you for having been to Petersburg.

[bagheera-san.livejournal.com]

Petersburg is nice (though it's bursting with tourists and I got heartily sick of all the Tzar stuff after a while) but modern Russia is weird. It's like - here we have a statue of Lenin! And here's our MacDonald's!

The epilogue is creepy - it's a gulag, and you expect horror and instead it's more of an idyll and you get the whole repenting thing. It's like what would happen if Sonia had written the ending.

Did you know that there's a C&P movie with John Simm as Raskolnikov? I went looking for movie versions and it gave me the lulz to find that one.

Vladimir/Estragon? Yep. I mean, the embracing. And the not being able to leave each other. There's talk about a production with Ian McKellen and Patrick Stewart. I'd love to see that.

[hils.livejournal.com]

What a neat idea!

*steals*

[bagheera-san.livejournal.com]

I got it from mskatej!

[norwich36.livejournal.com]

This meme always makes me so damn curious! And also gets me thinking about internet relationships, and how strongly I react to some people based not on actual interactions, necessarily, but just on their writing styles.

[bagheera-san.livejournal.com]

Actually, what I thought when I had done this meme was that my reactions to virtual people are surprisingly similar to how I feel in real life. The interactions are completely different, and so are the way virtual personas are conveyed, but my basic social patterns are the same. But there are people who I like a lot based on their writing/blogging but I suspect I wouldn't ever get along with them in real life.

[xparrot.livejournal.com]

I've seen this meme a lot and always dithered over doing it, because I'm torn between thinking my comments would be too obvious, or too obscure, or some unhappy medium...

...and I can't guess any of these (though I'm egotistically curious to know if I'm actually on the list, because damn your flattery is very, er, flattering.)

[bagheera-san.livejournal.com]

Hee, the meme forbids me to confirm or deny ;)

My answers are way too obscure, I know. The problem is that I'm even more terrified of flattering people than of insulting them. I have this irrational fear of seeming like an internet stalker!

[lukita.livejournal.com]

heee~ I've seen this meme popping up now and then. We only have three mutual friends so I can't even begin to guess who those people are. <3

[bagheera-san.livejournal.com]

Hmmm... I'm not so sure you couldn't ;) Although I'm way too vague to guess anyone, even if they are mutual friends.

[lukita.livejournal.com]

hmm... 8. is xparrot? XD

[bagheera-san.livejournal.com]

Can't confirm or deny! 8 fits for a whole number of people, though I had someone specific in mind.

Ever since I could kick myself for friending you

[ender24]

LOLZ, i am trying to be a good friend, if you need help, i could kick you for you *g*.

i totally love your insults, though sadly, i am none of them, i am pretty sure, coz i have no intelligent posts at all XD