2006
2006 didn't start very well for me, and it certainly isn't one of the best years of my life so far - in fact, it probably ranks among the worst, in a strange, eventless way.
I started it having returned from Australia, deeply depressed by my failure: I didn't stay as long as I wanted to, I didn't work, and I felt as if my life was completely out of balance. For months I did barely anything, then, in spring, I started studying Anthropology, never really intending to finish it. In summer I knew that I had to decide what to do with life and I also realised that there wasn't anything I *wanted* to do with my life, just things that I could imagine to be okay. I applied for both Psychology and Biology/English (with the aim of becoming a teacher) and I could have done both, but I chose to make teaching my career - I'm still not sure whether it was a good choice.
In October, I started university once again, and I nearly dropped out again, too, but I forced myself to go on. In November, my grandpa died and now, the year is over.
The Good:
- My friends, those who where there and those who were absent, but returned. I love them so much I never want to let go.
- coming out
- I feel that I have grown as a person this year, even if it was hellishly painful at times.
- I had good sex. :D Even if I still lack the ability to maintain a relationship.
- LJ. I'm finally active in fandom again and it's great.
- Now, at the end of it, I finally feel that I have let go of school. I have stopped looking backwards and that is always a good thing.
May 2007 be a better year for me and all of you!
Happy New Year!
